a telling sign

i'm not close with any dead people, but one day i will be. i see myself continuing communication with them, which is something i always thought was strange. people sitting at gravesites, weeping and offering, seems so false to me. your person is not there, don't you know? it's just dirt at this point (or ooze, depending on the "quality" of the casket). 

now i realize that i can't help sending love to people i've lost, dead or not. if i sent letters to a dead person, it would be seen as spiritual and sensitive. trying to stay in touch with someone who might wish i were dead is simply pathetic.

i don't care.