i told my new therapist, suggested to me by a co-worker whose daughter sounds slightly more bonkers than me, that all i want is to be a normal person. that is my number one goal.
what does that mean?
vacuum/dust
grocery shop
laundry
car wash
dog wash
me wash
organize
cook
freeze
scrub tub and toilet
pay bills
sleep properly
these are not lofty goals. it's shameful to even call them goals. these things should be givens for a 31 year old woman. but it's true -- i cannot or will not do these basic life-sustaining tasks.
right now, the thing i am able to do most effectively is lie on my side and stare, paralyzed by thoughts.
i am tired.
what does that mean?
vacuum/dust
grocery shop
laundry
car wash
dog wash
me wash
organize
cook
freeze
scrub tub and toilet
pay bills
sleep properly
these are not lofty goals. it's shameful to even call them goals. these things should be givens for a 31 year old woman. but it's true -- i cannot or will not do these basic life-sustaining tasks.
right now, the thing i am able to do most effectively is lie on my side and stare, paralyzed by thoughts.
i am tired.
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